February 2012
10 posts
I want to go back about five months and warn myself about what’s ahead.
I am truly broken. I am weak. I am tired, exhausted actually. I hurt. I hurt, a lot. Who am I.
I just feel like my life is getting worse.
I have to promise myself, before college, I must change my life around. I need to get my act together. I need to actually commit to everything that I want. With the shape I am in now, it seems almost impossible. But you see, there’s that problem too. I’m pretty pessimistic. Needs work.
January 2012
12 posts
It’d be so much better if you were oblivious to things.
I lovelovelove cute texts.
I want to get healthy. I want to get skinny.
I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
It really sucks when you just sit back and watch if a person makes a good or bad decision and if they make the bad one, it’ll hurt you completely inside. But you trust them enough to have heart and think twice about their actions, so you’ll think they will choose the good decision. But in the end you were wrong. They completely hurt you inside.
December 2011
12 posts
So much to say but feel ignored & avoided.
I’m in love with the most amazing guy; so glad to call him mine. 4.2.10<3
I never feel good enough, for anybody. It’s the worst feeling in the world.
I need to lose weight. It’s so hard, my mom keeps buying such good shit.
November 2011
11 posts
I hate not feeling pretty.
I fucked up. That’s the bottom line. I will forgive and then I will forget. That’s all I really can do.
So caught up in college application process.
October 2011
4 posts
seriously, absolutely insanely crazy. so much running through my mind. decision making, you know. actually, no. no, you don’t know.
4 more days until I see The Maine. I may look calm. I may seem calm. I may sound calm. BUT HOLY SHIT, I AM NOT CALM.
September 2011
33 posts
